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Living merely prolongs the rotting process, for when we die the skin decomposes, the follicles break down, the features which once made one beautiful or recognizable dry out and flake away leaving only the frame to which not even the most rough of assumptions can be formed. we play with clay and praise the artist for his rendition, but none may actually attest that that be the dead man’s face. we know not of deformities based on bone alone for ailments of the flesh are simply skin deep and nothing more. a scar dare not impress itself upon a bone for fear of permeability, fear that even in death his peers will notice him, segregate him, mock the weakness of his marrow.
What was that?
I’m riding down the road in my car. Everything seems so normal. I completely disregard the fact that in my passenger seat is my brother-in-law who I have never once given a ride to before. The edges of my vision shimmer. I do not know where I am going, where I came from, or where I am at any given moment. What I do know, is a car has pulled out in front of me, and it’s too icy to stop.
I fade back into consciousness. I am upside down, hanging, a hard length pressed into my chest. It takes me a moment to realize I am still inside the mangled vehicle. We have capsized. I struggle to free myself from the strap holding me to the mutilated mass of metal, but my fingers are too broken to comply. I suddenly remember I was not alone. I look to my right, and lock eyes with my brother-in-law. He is dead. His body, free within the cavity of the car from lack of restraint, is shattered; skin lacerated and viciously leaking.
It seems in ample time I am briskly pulled from the wreckage. The snow has begun to melt making me wonder just how long our vesicle had been breached. As I am ushered away I hear murmurs of a third body. My heart stops. Breaking the hold of my rescuer I make my way back to the scene. No one stops me. No one cares. I bend down and gaze into the back seat and promptly vomit down my front. Within a crushed car seat I see the remains of my three year-old niece; her neck twisted in such an unnatural position. It had snapped in the collision. I reach out to her, but a glint catches my eye and my hand reaches for this instead. It is a small mirror that was once mounted on the baby’s car seat. I look into its vast depths. My only sister’s sullen face looks back.
(And let the Prozac deprived nightmares begin. Wonderful.)
A questionaire with Richard Ramirez
Favourite Sports : Rugby, Football, Boxing
Favourite Music : Heavy Metal
Favourite Actress : Samantha Strong
Favourite Vacation Spot : URANUS
Favourite Food : Women’s feet
Favourite Color : Red
Pastimes / Hobbies : Travelling and measuring coffins
Biggest Like : Cocaine
Biggest Dislike : Hypocrites, Authority
Make a Wish : To have my finger on a nuclear trigger device
What do you look for in a girl : Nice Ass, Good Legs
Perfect way to spend a date : Moonlit night drinking rum at a cemetery
Describe Yourself : Asshole - and proud of it
Motto : Live each day as if it’s your last.
If you like a girl, how do you get a girl to notice you? : I pull out my gun
What’s one thing you’d change about yourself? : Not a damn thing, except where I’m at.
How has your life changed as a result of your success? : Privacy is a thing of the past.
What’s your message to your fans? : Keep your spirit strong.
Psychopathic Checklist
Without Conscience: The Disturbing World of the Psychopaths Among Us - has devised a twenty-item checklist identifying the main characteristics of the psychopathic personality.
- Glib and superficial charm - the tendency to be smooth, engaging, charming, slick, and verbally vacile. A psychopath never gets tongue-tied.
- Grandoise self-worth - a grossly inglated view of one’s abilities and self-worth. Psychopaths are arrogant people who believe they are superior human beings.
- Need for stimulation or proneness to boredeom - an excessive need for novel, thrilling, and exciting stimulations; taking chances and doing things that are risky.
- Pathological lying - can be moderate or high.
- Conning and manipulativeness - the use of deceit and deception to con, cheat, or defraud others for personal gain.
- Lack of remorse or guilt - a lack of feelings or concern for the losses, pain, and suffering of victims.
- Shallow effect - emotional poverty or a limited range or depth of feelings.
- Callousness and lack of empathy - a lack of feeling toward people in general; cold, contemptuous, inconsiderate, and tactless.
- Parasitic lifestyle - an intentional, manipulative, selfish, and exploitative financial dependance on others.
- Poor behavioral controls - expressions of irritability, annoyance, impatience, threats, agression, and verbal abuse.
- Promiscuous sexual behavior - a variety of brief, superficial relations, numerous affairs, and an indiscriminate selection of sexual partners.
- Early behavioral problems - a variety of behaviors prior to age thirteen, including lying, theft, cheating, vandalism, bullying, sexual activity, fire-setting, glue-sniffing, alcohol use, and running away from home.
- Lack of realistic long-term-goals - an inability or persistent failure to develop and execute long-term plans and goals.
- Impulsivity - the occurrence of behaviors than are unpremeditated and lack reflection or planning; inability to resist temptation.
- Irresponsibility - repeated failure to fulfill or honor obligations and commitments.
- Failure to accept responsibility for own actions - as reflected in low conscientiouness, an absense of dutifulness, denial of responsibility, and an effort to manipulate others through this denial.
- Many short-term marital relationships - a lack of commitment to a long-term relationship.
- Juvenile relinquency - behavior problems between the ages of thirteen and eighteen.
- Revocation of conditional release - a revocation of probation or other conditional releases due to technical violations.
- Criminal versatility - a diversity of types of criminal offences; taking great pride in getting away with crimes.
